I have found myself pretty introspective lately. I think it is a combination of the season of Lent and the impending new role of parent. It is amazing how having this little life growing inside of me can put everything in a completely different light than ever before. Suddenly every decision I make impacts more than just myself. I think it also make me realize how many things in my life could use some work. I guess that is where Lent comes in, as a Christian spending this time in preparation seems to well parallel the preparations I am and/or should be doing for the birth of our baby.
I think people who know me well would describe me more as spiritual than religious. I have always believed in a higher power and the concept of doing good for myself and others. I often am challened by some of the indoctrination that often seems to accompany organized religion. Not that I am saying I have it all right, but I am challenged to think ANY of us could possible have it ALL correct. I guess I will just keep striving to be the best person I can be, which will (hopefully) in turn, make me the best mother I can be.
Today I have been hung up on two songs. I guess they sort of illustrate my conflicted view between God and the secular. At any rate, both are great songs that I personally find have a lot of meaning to me. Maybe you'll enjoy them or find some meaning in them, as well.
"For Good" from Wicked
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hrInbL9sh7U
Matt Maher's "Set Me As A Seal"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dy_TGOeESrw
